getting better with food

so ive been eating so much fruit now and i can really feel the difference. i have more energy now and i just feel better in general.
i also made myself a detox smoothy today. i though i wouldnt like it which is why i have had the ingredients for a week now but havnt made it untill today but i really enjoyed it. it was really tasty. and easy to make too. all you need is a handful of frozen fruit of your choice, a handfull of spinach or kale and water. mix in a smoothy maker or blender and there you have it.

it looks healthy but a little unappetizing but believe me it tastes really nice and im not usually one for new things.
i also made a tuna pasta bake for dinner last night which was really nice. im  ot sure whether it was entirely healthy but it had fish and pasta in but it also had quite alot of cheese which isnt good.

i have managed to lose another lb which makes only 1.4lb to go before my christmas weight is gone, gone, gone. ill shift that in a week if i try really hard and 2 weeks if i dont lol.

im still not happy with my body image. i can fit into size 14 now but its tight and gives me a muffin top so ill stay in my baggy size 16 for now. ill need to loose a couple more lbs before i can get into them without looking like a fool.

i feel really good about all of this now. everything seems to be going really well again. im back on track again and im not giving up

This past week

so the food journal didnt really work out very well did it? i really just forgot to keep track of what i was eating. although i can tell you i have been eating a lot less crap than i have been. and more fruit and other good things for me. my body is trying to get used to the change in diet at the moment so im left with a lot of wind and the biker moaning at me all the time. i think its funny though.
exercise..........ok ive dropped the ball there a bit. i havnt really done alot......ok any but i do walk a fair distance to take R to school and bring him home. something is working though because i have lost 1lb of my christmas weight which im really pleased about
ive always said i dont care how fast or slow i lose the weight as long as i lose it.
im going to start going to weight watchers next week. i had the opportunity to go last night but it was last minute and i had noone to look after R. i was going to text my friend back and tell her but my phone died. yeah i should really get back to her. that way i have even more tools to help me get to where i want to be.
hopefully it will make it just that little bit easier

Tuesday
2 slices of toast with low fat margarine
1 large orange
2 sausage rolls with brown sauce
1 pack of rolo's
1/2 pack of minstrels
1 small orange
1 apple

Wednesday
1 large orange
1 apple
a bowl of cereal with 1 1/2 tbsp of sugar
4 fudge pieces
10 biscuits
1 chocolate bar
2 slices of cheese on toast
1 large take Indian take away

looking at that list of foods ive consumed in the past 2 days makes me feel a little ill really. i have eaten far too much and far too much crap. i feel really shitty about myself now. i want to crawl away and maybe not eat for the next week or 2
i havnt really done any exercise either. ive walked loads though so its not like i haven't done any at all.
i think i may need to kick my arse into gear and stop eating so much damn shit. need to get it out of the house. the biker keeps buying all this crap and then leaving me with it when he works at night. when im bored i eat and when there is crap in the house thats what i eat. i hate how little self control i actually have. i wish i could be stronger. actually fuck that. I WILL BE STRONGER.

January 8th & 9th 2012

Well the past few days havnt been the best when it comes to exercising. i took the dog for a longish walk on sunday which was really good......untill she managed to get her collar off and ran off. i got her back though lol. today ive walked so much im aching. after dropping R off at school i popped into the village to get some fruit and veg from the green grocers. the bags were really heavy i felt like i was weight lifting. my arms hurt so much. i took them home and then went to my local craft shop to get some things. those bags were also heavy so more weight lifting. on the way to get R i had to stop off in the village again to get some money out and sfter i had to take R to his swimming lesson and walk back from there. i know ive done alot today because i just ache all over.
ive been better with food though. this is what i ate in the past few days. there is still a few hours of today left though and i may eat more. ive been hungry all freakin day.

Sunday food log
4 slices of toast
4 oranges
chip shop chips
2 chocolate digestive biscuits
(this is all i can remember eating)

Monday food log
1 apple
2 small oranges
1 large orange
handful of sweets
cracker bread and low fat margarine
weight watchers chicken curry

its been a good couple of days when it comes to food. i havnt eaten as much or as badly as i thought i had. putting it down in writing really puts it into perspective.
i think im going to look up some more low fat recipes online as the same stuff to eat all the time is getting boring really. i need more variety.

January 7th 2012

weekends are not good for me. or should i say im not good at weekends. i did start the day properly. i had half a grapefruit for breakfast with a drink or skimmed milk. and then for lunch i had a turkey salad baguette which was really nice. at the mothers i had nothing bad for me at all :) big achievement for me. and then when i got home...............i had half a packet of sweets...........and then half a small box of chocolates.............bad girl, bad bad girl. for dinner i had a weight watchers pizza which is made with low fat cheese and other low fat ingredients.   and then i had an orange and 1 chocolate (cheers biker)
ok looking back at it now ive been pretty good today. you dont think about it untill you write it down. thats why i love that ive started this blog.
one bad thing today. i havnt done any exercise today and im not planning on it. other than the fact i dont like doing exercise in front of the biker (i get embarrassing) but ive pulled a muscle in my shoulder and i can barely move my arm. not very good for exercise really.
i know i know it sounds like im making excuses but im done with that. im done making up reasons why i cant do things or eat properly. i will do things properly.

January 6th 2012

ive been a bit naughty today with my food. slap my hand oops. i started really well. i had a couple of slices of 50/50 toast with very little butter. when i got home from dropping R off at school i had some cracker bread with a little margarine (erm i had about 12 cracker bread oops) and thats where it started going downhill. after that i had a small twix with tea at my moms house. im always bad at my moms house i should really start carrying healthy snacks in my bag with me.
well we went shopping and i got absolutely loads of healthy foods and snacks which made me feel better about where i was going with the diet and weight loss. and then i popped to my moms to get my laptop. and she offered me some cake. and i ended up eating 2 slices of cake :( which made me feel crappy about what i was doing.
so as soon as i put R to bed i got my fat arse on my bike and did 35 minutes and burned 437 calories. i felt so much better about myself after that.
for dinner i decided on egg and chips but cooking the chips in the oven so they wouldnt be loaded with fat. that didnt turn out very well and the whole thing turned our very greasy. not the best for a "healthy" dinner. although i had a couple of oranges when i was waiting for the chips to cook so that has to count for something.........right?
well although dinner turned out to be a big fat bust (pun intended) i feel better about the dinners and snacks i can make myself with the new and more expensive shopping. i think the whole family can benefit from it now :)

on another note. has anybody noticed how expensive eating healthy is? fruit and veg are very costly and anything else to make nice healthy meals costs so much. i dont think its very fair really. with all the pressure to be healthy and thin they dont make it very easy if your on a budget do they?

January 5th 2012

today has been a bad day for food. although i havnt eaten alot compared to other days over xmas.

today i have eaten 2 slices of toast with too much margarine, most of a packet of chocolate chip cookies, and 2 bowls of lamb and vegetable medly.

this was made by putting a leg of lamb in the slow cooker with some veg and cooked on low for about 8 hours.

looking at it i could have eaten better but i havnt over eaten today which is good :)

I HAVE EXERCISED :D after just over  3 months of doing none at all i finally got on my bike.

i was on there for 31 minutes and burned 400 calories.

im feeling so good i may give my zumba dvd a try. the biker will be unimpressed if i dont as he got it me for xmas. if i didnt know he was trying to help me i think i would have been upset lol

i think ive done well today looking at it now. its good to write/type things down